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Sickly Glow

“You’re glowing lady.” Rush is staring at her with raised eyebrows.

Jode clutches the sawed off bat tighter, hoping maybe it would feel less heavy in her palm, “I don’t know if you can tell jackass, but I’m not in the mood to flirt.”

“I’m speaking literally,” Rush’s chuckle sounds more nervous than anything. He slides his hand into his pocket and pulls out a small metal square. Flipping it up, Jode’s eye catches the flutter of pre-roll papers.

“Look for yourself.”

Rush holds out a small mirror. Jode looks.

Then she stares.

The dark brown of her eyes she’s used to is replaced with a cyan hue. Scattered across her face are specks of the same glowing gamma, sickly neon freckles across her face and neck.

Jode’s eyes go wide, they meet with Rush’s concerned ones before they slowly move down to the Iffey in her hands.

Jode takes a deep breath. She closes her eyes. Even then, the glow shines through her eyelids.

She lifts her fingers, one by one, her skin sticks to the wood grain for fractions of a second before separating.

The useless bat lands on the carpet with a thud.

When she opens her eyes again, Rush is still holding the mirror. The glow has faded, her skin is still as sunworn as ever, her eyes are back to amber.

“Son of a bitch…” Rush lets it slip out of his mouth before he closes the mirror.

“Yeah…” Jode looks back down at the bat, Rushito is standing between her feet now, keeping its distance from the thing.

Jode gives herself a moment of hesitation, a moment to consider walking away, before she bends down and picks up the bat again. Rushito skitters away, crawling up Rush’s pant leg before climbing to his usual spot on his shoulder. Jode can see the glow, radiating off of Rush’s dark eyes.

“Whatever you had in that mirror, roll me one would you?” Jode turns around and begins to walk away, not wanting to see whatever emotions would come across Rush’s face.

“Yeah–Yeah of course lady,” Rush sighs, gives one last glance to the omen in her hands, and follows after her.

Life, Not Living at All

The Toy Soldier lies there, crumpled on the floor of the aging starship.

It did not move, it did not shift.

It was dead.

See, life does not have one exclusive definition. No matter how many philosophers and scientists the crew of Aurora encountered in the millennials they existed, they never could find an concise, universal explanation for life; being that they were “immortal,” putting a definition on the phrase wasn’t exactly a priority.

In a way, each member of the crew had their own way of understanding their lives and immortality, some pessimistic and doubtful like Marius, others unquestioning headstrong like Jonny. They all processed life very, very differently.

Except for their understanding of The Toy Soldier.

See, The Toy Soldier had been different, it always has. Brought to them far different than the rest, the wooden soldier was always a questionable anomaly within the crew’s dynamic, but regardless, since first activation they embraced it as one of their own.

Sure, each crew member did act differently around the soldier, and it’s occasional exclusion was never something that went unnoticed by it, but like with life, it’s vast experience with socialization and friendship only kept it more alive. Positive and negative experiences are a part of life just as much as anything else. Movie night, crew dinners, gunfire, a gentle push out the airlock, they were all a part of life, and all jolly good fun.

Each member of the Aurora can recount times spent with the soldier, through moons, planets and wars, as well as the passing day and night cycles on the ship. Their memories of the soldier are fond, personal, and inevitability, quite important.

Because life has no one definition, often it is up to the individual to decide what life is. We paint organisms, sensations and objects as alive and inanimate at our own leisure.

To the good doctor, to Jonny and Naysta, Ashes and Tim, Brian and Ivy, and Marius and Raphaella, The Toy Soldier was certainly alive.

Yet in the end, when life is made up in the mind, what is a simple wooden soldier supposed to do when there is no one to understand its life?

Well, it simply stops pretending.

It stops pretending for it’s friends who are no longer able to believe.

Ode To Swans and Love Long Lost

Siegfried

The Odette

Jonny remembers them well.

Caught up in a worthless war that was constructed for the same shitty lust for power wars are always made for.

Frankly, Jonny was damn tired of wars like this, and the crew almost skipped it entirely.

The they saw her. The Odette, a silver glowing starship that had the most radiant wings.

The crew, captivated by her beauty, did not register they way she turned towards the Aurora, nor did they realize the rumble of their own ship.

It was only a loud, blaring transmission that brought them out of their stupor, “Are you Imperial or Confederation!”

It was Aurora who answered for them, confirming their disinvolvement with the whole affair, then another excited voice, shouted out from their transmission system, “She’s like me!”

Jonny sighs, the pencil he was unconsciously chewing on dropping from his lips.

“Aurora?” Jonny spoke just above a whisper.

On the wall Jonny’s desk was pushed against, a panel flipped, revealing a holo-screen.

[Yes, Jonny?]

Jonny lets a tired smile grace across his face, “You remember Siegfried and The Odette, right?”

The screen blinked a pregnant pause, [Of course I do.]

[It was such a shame.]

Jonny had met Siegfried on the bridge of the ship, Odette and Aurora were docked in tandem, currently talking in whirling excited rounds.

He stuck out his hand, “Jonny d’Ville, captain.”

Their grip was tight, “Siegfried, I suppose I’m captain as well.”

Jonny shook their hand and grinned, “It’s not too often we encounter ships like this.”

Siegfrid laughed, letting his hand go as they walked to the bridge, “Same here, friendly faces are a rarity.”

Jonny nodded, “You did ask if we were imperial or confederation, what was that all about?”

Sighing, Siegfried sat down in the captain’s chair, “Well, I’m sure you’re aware of the current war going on—” Jonny chuckled bitterly, “Unfortunately”

Siegfried continued, “I am an ex member of the confederate forces. I was a general, a high ranking one if that, so the imperials weren’t exactly fond of me.”

Jonny walked around, pulling up a bridge chair as they speak, “I was escaping a rather bloody battle. My ship was shot to all hell, I was convinced I was dead, ready to accept my fate even…”

“And then you saw her.”

Siegfried looked to Jonny’s pleasant smile, “And then I saw her—I ejected from my ship without really thinking. She was beautiful. I didn’t even know she was still alive yet, but from the moment I saw her I felt overwhelming peace.”

“But Odette was still alive, right?” Jonny prompted.

Siegfried nodded, “That’s right. The imperials were always well versed in biomechanics. Apparently, Odette was abandoned by her original crew, but once I interacted with her screens, she woke up.”

“You’ve been together ever since, I’m guessing?

“Of course!” Siegfried beamed, “She was thrilled to have me as her captain, she protected me without a doubt in her mind. I didn’t want to part with her & I tried to return home—“

Siegfried’s face shifted, their brow furrowed, “The leaders didn’t trust her, said her brain was too dangerous, the risk of her being a spy was too high. They split us up & I was honestly inconsolable.”

Jonny watched as their face shifted into anger, “They tried to give me another woman, make me think it was Odette so I’d settle down. It was a fucking lie, they had locked the real Odette up & they planned on hurting her. I couldn’t stand it anymore!”

Finally, Siegfried let out a tired sigh, “I broke her out, left our base, & we’ve been on the run from both parties of the war ever sense.”

“But you still have each other,” Jonny spoke.

“That’s right,” Siegfried spoke softly, “She’s my ship, I’m her captain, we go together.”

“Lovers.”

Siegfried grins at him, “Yes, how’d you know?”

Jonny laughs, nostalgia filling his brain, “Experience.”

They cock their head with a grin, “So you & Aurora then?”

Jonny’s eyes go wide & his face shifts into an awkward disgust, “No no no no no-“

Siegfried puts their hands up in a panic, “Did I get something wrong?”

Jonny sighs, knowing what he has to explain next, “You’re fine, it isn’t your fault.”

He takes a breath, “Aurora’s partner, her engineer, my—“ Jonny swallows the lump in throat, “my sister, she left us some time ago.”

A part of him felt all wrong for telling them this. He barely knew them. He barely mentioned it with the crew, let alone strangers.

But here, with Siegfried, he felt safe.

Siegfried closes their eyes & nods their head, “I’m quiet sorry to hear that.”

Jonny only nods in response, and for a moment, the pair is silent.

It’s Jonny who breaks it again, “You know Siegfried, I’d love to hear more stories you have to tell.”

Siegfried smiled, “Oh I have plenty!”

The pair chatted for some time, when Aurora & Odette joining in to add to their tales, one moment Siegfried was explaining a battle & near getaways, the next Jonny was talking about the crimson rose war.

Jonny had just finished recounting the tale of dear Briar Rose & the efforts they went through to save her, as Siegfried glanced at one of the holo screens.

“Jonny,” they spoke, “I truly loved spending time with you, but I think it’s best that we be going.”

Jonny turned his head in confusion, & then Odette’s voice came through the speakers,”We’ve been stationary for some time, it’s been alright so far, but we don’t want to risk being caught by another fleet.”

Jonny nodded & stood up, “We don’t want that at all.”

Siegfried walked him to the bridge, & he shook their hand again, “It was nice talking to you. If you never need us, feel free to call.”

They laughed, “How am I supposed to call?”

Jonny paused for a moment to think, “Ah! You can broadcast a code, if we pick it up, we’ll know it’s you.”

Siegfried nodded, “And what should that code be?”

“Swan.” Jonny smiled, “Let’s go with swan.”

They smiled softly at that, “Sounds perfect to me.”

Soon after, Jonny departed, the smile on his face slowly fell as his mind filled with memories.

They really did remind him of Nastya.

He thinks Aurora felt it too, as she rumbled differently as they disconnected from the Odette.

The crew was waiting for him to get back, his first sight being Marius grinning at him.

“Well that seemed awfully nice~“

Ashes looked at Jonny’s face and elbowed Marius as Jonny walked past, “Not the time genius.”

Jonny left the room, ignoring his crew, consumed by the same feeling of nostalgia he felt before.

Not two months after their encounter with the pair, Aurora started to go haywire.

Jonny awoke to banging on his door, rushing out of the bed, he was greeted with Brian’s worried face.

“Aurora is freaking out. She just keeps screaming about the word swan and I have no idea what’s going on.”

Jonny’s eyes went wide, “Oh fuck!”

Jonny nudged Brian to the side, and went taking off towards the bridge.

Once he made it there, he could see the panic across Aurora’s screens, attempts at location tracking and messy broadcast transmissions.

“Aurora, Aurora! What’s going on?”

Instead of a screen, he only head the panicked noises of an unknown language. Jonny cursed himself for never learning it from Nastya, but the tried his best to work with what he had. Tapping the holo-screens, he could see the transmission they had been getting.

Broadcasting through a ticker, he watched as the word SWAN rolled by over and over. The location they could track was in reach, but still far, and with determination and anxiety bottled up into one, Jonny spoke, “Aurora, get us there as fast as you can.”

They were too late.

By the time they arrived at the Odette’s last known coordinates, they were already lost.

Rubble and dust floating through the cosmos, Jonny stared out in object sadness.

Aurora was rumbling now, low and pained.

This—death, Jonny had to actually call it that this time, clearly felt all too familiar.

Jonny walked out of the bridge then, his fists clenched. From a distance, he could hear Tim and Ashes shouting about searching the debris, but Jonny couldn’t bring himself to join in. Instead his shaking form walked to the engine room. He greeted Aurora with the softest of voice. Her heart was aching, the rumbling clearer now; so Jonny sat down near her, and without interruption, the pair mourned.

[They deserved better.] Aurora’s screen came to life in front of him after an aching period of silence.

Jonny sighed, “I know.”

Pencil back on the paper, Jonny had been writing.

Thoughts of the pair, accompanied by the memory of experience and story, he set out again.

Aurora helped where she could, recalling what her and Odette had shared.

He knew what he wanted to do.

There was another story to tell.

Do you remember when we first met?